Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Halfway to Somewhere

This morning I had my 17th of 34 doses of radiation therapy. I have now had half the doses I will have before surgery. What's more, I've now had half of my lifetime limit on radiation therapy for this area of my body. After January 11, I can never have any more radiation therapy in this area.

That's an aggressive treatment plan.

Yesterday, I started to feel the first noticeable effects of the radiation. I have a slight catch in my throat when I swallow, especially liquids, and my fatigue level is increasing for the first time since I finished chemo. I tried to persuade Dr. Trivette that the catch in my throat is related to my head cold, but he is quite certain that it is from the radiation. He's a little surprised that I'm not feeling any more discomfort than I am.

I've got a little more Christmas shopping to get done today and tomorrow, so I'm going to try to ration out my energy to get that done. I also have some gifts to deliver.

Most of all, I want to play (at least the first set) at the pub on Thursday and at Christmas Eve Mass with the family on Friday. As usual, I expect to get by with a little help from my family and friends.

17 doses of radiation down, 17 to go.

9 Comments:

Blogger Ed said...

Sounds like the beginning of a set list!

"Would you believe in a love at first sight?
Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time..."

4:50 PM  
Blogger Jyothi said...

Between Here and Somewhere Else...

Wherever we are, it is but a stage on the way to somewhere else, and whatever we do, however well we do it, it is only a preparation to do something else that shall be different.
--Robert Louis Stevenson

The journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place.
--Barbara De Angelis

What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

The only journey is the one within.
--Rainer Maria Rilke

The "Big Question" is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure.
--Joseph Campbell

My Momma always said life is like a box of chocolates.
You never know what you're gonna get.
--Forest Gump

It is good to have an end to journey toward;
but it is the journey that matters in the end.
--Ursula LeGuinn

5:48 PM  
Blogger vkenny said...

Hi Jimmy, Half way home and I think you have shown just how much can be accomplished with a good plan, great family and great friends. I don't think more can be said about how much we can do if we combine our strengths and the power of prayer. Keep fighting the good fight.

V

8:17 AM  
Blogger Kita28 said...

Jim -

Since I'm responding to this blog a little late, you are more than halfway done by now. Yay!!!

I just wanted to thank you for keeping this blog (I know you've heard this before, but I wanted you to hear it from me and mine). It is such a gift to be able to check on how you are doing each day. As I go through my days thinking about you and Judy and the kids continuously, it gives me great peace of mind to be able to log on and see how you are doing. Not only that, but I feel like I'm getting to know you better than I have in many years.

So thanks, Jim, for being so open and sharing your journey with us. It means more than you could possibly know.

I hope you have a wonderful and very musical Christmas. I wish I could be there for the Guy Christmas Eve mass!

Lots of love,

Kita

7:28 PM  
Blogger Tom Wolf said...

Can't sleep, so here's my Quaker Christmas message. A heathen told the Jewish sage Hillel that he would convert to Judaism if Hillel could explain the Torah while standing on one foot. Hillel replied, "Don't do to others what you wouldn't have them do to you. That’s it; all the rest is commentary."

To explain Quakerism, I can do better than Hillel and reduce it to one word: Emmanuel (Hebrew for “God with us”). To me the teaching of Jesus is, in its essence, that God is with us, even in us, as close as our breath, not somewhere “out there.” And the teaching of the mystic George Fox, who founded Quakerism in 1648, is that God, or what Fox sometimes called the “Seed of Christ,” is manifest in every person, and indeed in every aspect of the Creation. There’s a whole lot that flows from that--tolerance, love, a belief in the sanctity of life--but that’s essentially it. Quakers have no other doctrine or dogma, and no rituals, other than gathering to worship in silence. They avoid theology, because experience of the Divine Presence in each moment is what it’s all about. You might say they are the Zen branch of Christianity (hence my affinity for Zen).

So to me the message of Christmas, of Jesus’ birth not only as a vulnerable baby, but as an impoverished outcast for whom the world could find no place, is that in all circumstances, even the most painful and frightening, God is with us. And that makes all the difference. It’s the difference between, on the one hand, being an ambulatory bag of skin pinned by gravity to a rock hurtling through empty space in a meaningless universe, and, on the other hand, being a co-creator of a world imbued with divinity, where God is in everyone you meet and every breath you take.

And then there's the later part of Jesus' message--that death is perfectly safe.

Bless you, Jim Guy; you’re a wonderful man. Love, Tom

1:49 AM  
Blogger GaryD77 said...

Merry Christmas, Jim!

1:03 PM  
Blogger UisceBaGirl said...

Jim,

I'm so glad to see you and Judy at the pub every week, which must take a lot of energy for you these days. I'm glad to see you there even when you can't sing with UB. I really love it when you are able to join them in song (for that time all seems right with the world). I admire you both so much and will keep your family in my thoughts over this holiday.

Merry Christmas to all those who faithfully read this blog and who in their prayers are supporting Jim and his family.

Pamela

3:09 PM  
Blogger slayton said...

Jim, I have been reading your blog since the day you started sharing your thoughts with us. I have also shared the link to this site with many of my friends...many who do not know you...

Your words have been a gift to me and everyone else reading your post. The thoughts you and your friends share are especially meaningful during this sacred holiday season. May you, Judy and the kids have the most blessed Chirstmas ever...you have been, and will continue to be in my prayers.

Salud

12:06 PM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Merry Christmas Guy Family!
We love you!

Love,
Jenn, John, and FiFi

9:13 PM  

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