Monday, December 27, 2004

Good news.

For the next week and a half, my principal task is to get ready for the last week of radiation and presurgical chemo.

This morning after radiation therapy and my weekly planning x-rays, I met with Dr. Trivette, my radiation oncologist. He continues to be pleased with my tolerance of the radiation. I told him about playing music at church on Friday and at the pub on Thursday, and he seemed a little surprised at my activity level. I confessed to rationing my energy for the things I really wanted to do. I also noted that I spent a great deal of time doing nothing at all, and that I'm feeling a little more esophagitis and some light-headedness. None of these surprised him at all.

I went for my weekly blood tests at the infusion center late this morning, expecting to submit to procrit and possibly neulasta (sp?) shots. Last week I was borderline, and talked the nurses out of administering the procrit, for which Dr. Trivette chided me a bit this morning.

To my surprise and delight, my red cell count turns out to be higher than last week, and my white count remains within tolerances, so there was not even an offer of the shots. My blood counts are actually improving without the medicine.

No philosophy today. Just contentment with this morning's medical reports and resolution for the next 2 and 1/2 weeks.

9 Comments:

Blogger Bineta said...

Good evening and Thank you for sharing such an experience with all of us. Your story is one of the things that made us realize how lucky we are to be in good health but still we are always complaining about ourselves. We sould be ashamed for being so rotten like small kids. You are an example, and you seem to take life as it comes and enjoy it to it's fullest. Not once in your message have i seen a complaint. I really want to congratulate you on your attitude and encourage you to get better very soon.
Stay with us..;Bineta

3:14 PM  
Blogger Dorrie said...

Jim,

I've been reflecting a lot on choice lately.

For me, it started out as a lecture to Dottie on how she could choose to spend her time laying on the floor crying about not being allowed to watch TV or she could choose to spend the same 15 minutes playing a game or reading a story before bed. I got so involved in the lecture that I keep picking it up whenever she is headed towards a choice that will have negative repercussions (in her case, at this age, a time out).

I feel the “choice” discussion is an important part of my parenting toolkit because later in life she'll be faced with choices that don't involve me. And she needs to be armed with the thought process of options -> choice -> repercussions -> future options.

As I lecture Dottie I also reflect on my own choices. Recently, my choice reflections have drifted into the realm of control. “All I can control is myself and my choices. I cannot control the people or events around me. When presented with options all I can control is myself and my choices.”

It’s not like the idea of “choice” (free will) hasn’t been around forever, it’s just that I’m thinking about it now. In our days before children, Richard caught me wallowing in self-pity and asked, “Is this where we are giving up, or are we going to get up and move forward?” It’s about choice. He just needed to know which choice I was making.

I’ve been thinking about choice and control so much that I (as any extrovert would) have been moved to share my thoughts with anyone who will listen.

So this morning I hit my stride in my choice reflections. I explained my choice and control revelations to a somewhat willing audience. Then, I turned my attention to my computer and opened up your blog. Cue up the “twilight zone” music. We shared some time this weekend, didn’t talk at all about “choosing” and yet were both reflecting on it in our own contexts.

(By the time I was ready to comment you had a new posting up. This time also about choosing - choosing where you spend your energy and where you conserve it.)

I'm pleased with my choices this weekend. Pleased that I and mine got to see you and yours.

Love,
Dorrie

5:34 PM  
Blogger Tom Wolf said...

Glad to see that things continue to go well, and that you and Dorrie have a psychic connection.

Love, Tom

5:53 PM  
Blogger Kita28 said...

Jim -

That's great about the blood work, and about how well you've been tolerating the treatments.

I've told Judy that with the particular challenges I face in my life, I try to "celebrate every little victory."

Thanks for letting me celebrate yours too.

Kita

7:15 PM  
Blogger marian said...

Yay! That's all.

4:34 PM  
Blogger UisceBaGirl said...

Are there any more beautiful words in our language than "Good news"?

I believe in positive thinking. I believe in prayer. And I believe in Jim.

All the best to the Guy family for today, this week, and the New Year.

Pamela

12:25 PM  
Blogger vkenny said...

Hi Jimmy, Great news on the blood counts it seems as though you have been blessed in more ways than one this holiday season. At this point many battles have been won but the war rages on, stay focused and alert and keep fighting the good fight, the prayers and positive thoughts will keep coming and many people will be able to rejoice in your victory.
V

2:02 PM  
Blogger Jyothi said...

WOW to your Christmas message! You are right about Sartre's NO EXIT quote and so very right about choosing heaven.

The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven.

John Milton, Paradise Lost. Book i. Line 253.

3:12 PM  
Blogger Beth W. said...

Hi Jim,

Glad you're doing so well. Alexandra and I pray for you and your family each night at bedtime, and last night she asked how you're doing - I promised I'd check today and let her know. Take care of yourself and thanks for keeping all of us up-to-date!

Here's to a Blessed and Happy New Year for you and your family.

-Beth

1:48 PM  

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